do you think chest hair is sexy?

except, no one except for me will actually understand that title, so i'll just leave it at that.
i'm at loss for words about everything in my life right now. everything seems so jumbled and i can't seem to process it fast enough. i kind of life the fast pace? but i'm not ready for it.
so i have a lot on my mind, a lot to do, and a lot to think about.

mystomachhurts.myroomisgross.imissmyshads.imissmyamericans.imisseverythingthaticanthave.
i am such a complainer, i know, and i dont even bother learning how NOT to be so like this. oh well. yes. oH WELL.

okay okay, about shad. why i loved it. because it was productive and fun, and because i met the coolest people ever. yes! maine people can compare! there was something about them that just clicked. they understood me, and they loved me for who i was. no pretending, no faking. just me. raw.

today was an awesome day. andrea was so freaking hyper she freaked a) the little kids b) a certain someone who is rather rather handsome c) me out.

as for hem hem, i guess i'm feeling okay about it now? im not sure how or what to feel. other than what i haev been feeling for the past week. so ill just leave it at that. and let it pick up when time comes again. wise words, non?

xo
h

currently listening to:
iris- goo goo dolls
for good- from wicked
the world i know- collective soul
every breath you take - sting and the police
god must have spent a little more time on you- N'Sync (although i remain a true bsb fan)

i just miss nchink (yes you make me cry with the memory of that song), gof (never apart), my shads.