"it just seems like no matter how many more times we discuss it, it doesnt seem to get better or easier. it just sinks deeper and deeper into our hearts until we can go no more. it settles there, for a little while, until it becomes part of us, part of who we are as a human being every day. "

"i guess what i do is just remind myself that it couldn't last foreever, & i'd rather have had the experience than not have it at all so even though it's over i'm still grateful to have all those people out there even if i can't see them everyday"

"yeah. i tell myself that too. every day. "


tonight has been hard. i've realized i need them. and even if they have lives to live, and i have my life to live, to stop and say i love you makes it all the better to live. i haven't lost them. but sometimes, it sure feels like it. then the i love you too reminds me that there is something, somewhere, and that it's not all lost. the feelings are washed away. and i rise again.

xo
-h