theblahblah blues

i've never been one to be quick or witty.
i dont know why i just said that. i was reading over some comments, and i feel sorry for people who read my random outburts that i just loove to post here. on the internet. for stalkerpeople to read. i just made a circle. oh gawd.
as much as i miss the wonk, im slowly getting back into things. i kinda look around and notice that everyone is moving so fast yet im still working at this slow, maybe not-so-steady pace. its kind of annoying and doesnt help much that you've got all sorts of people and pressures from all around. i just want to tell them to shut up because they dont get it at all. talking to mep was lovely and what she said gave me chills. "i dont want to get over it" again, i dont want to forget. i want to remember. everything.
as much as this is some sort of therapy for me to "get through this difficult period of transition time", damn 34. its bad enough they're sleeping in our beds ( boys in binnacle? ew.) but their willard tactics are just tacky. rule number 4. oh haha. very funny.
my friends- i love you. muchos gracias for getting me back and for being there no matter when or where to listen. i didnt want it to be so emotional or whatever, and im slowly learning to pull back.
as always, theres much to do and no time to do it. except now, that is, so...
see ya on the flip side.
xo and love
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